well yesterday was my spritual birthday & i spend it at work then after met some bro & play DOTA!!!! YEA! kanna owned... lol anyway not a very spiritual way to remember it huh... well i have many mix feelings abt my bday, i'm very grateful & all but i oso feel abit sad cos it'll make me think abt lotsa things in the past... yea i was abit emotional, have lotsa mix feelings & i cant help but to think how significant this day is to God but i feel more burden by it... I'm sorry God, felt like my 7 yrs as a x'tain have lotsa ups & downs, many struggle & many blessings... but it's still a struggle no doubt... i thought alot abt God thought abt why i'm still fighting & wat i'm still fighting... cant help but to feel abit helpless & abit emotional...
well now i do feel motivated to carry on abit fearful, abit lacking in faith, i noe i've to carry on cant bow down to my sins... to think of it dunno how many times in the 7 yrs i've failed... dunno how many times God have forgiven me... thx for the forgiveness God... i think the struggle goes on but God already went ahead... jia you all my frens when ur spritual bday come think abt how many times God have forgive u, it will put many things into perspective!
